Barbaraa

It is so hard for me to stick to doing well, even for a day! I start off with great intentions (usually the night before thinking about the next day) then once my alarm goes off at 5 for my work out I’m “too tired” and I hit snooze. Knowing very well that I have noodles more energy when I actually work out before heading to work. I just bought a new bike about a week ago with the intentions of riding my bike to work, save money on gas and burn an extra 200+ calories a day. Had a plan to start getting into running shape, I got info from a “couch potatoe to 5k in 8 weeks” its a simple program, but as I’m trying to complete the run 90 seconds walk 90 seconds all I keep telling myself is “I cant do this, I just want to turn around and go home.” And do what?!?! Sit on my butt on the couch. I’m tired of this. I have an entire closet full of goal clothes, that I actually used to fit into. I was in a size 8 before I got pregnant with my second child, then I gave myself permission to eat ridiculously and I’m still doing it. The part that really bothers me about this, is yes I have done this before I lost 50 pounds after I had my first child and now I’m just being lazy. And man my husband just quit smoking in Decemeber, like it was nothing! And I just stop stuffing my face and sitting on my butt. What is wrong with me? I need to actually start tracking my calories again and exercising twice a day, thats the only way I can keep my energy levels up all day. Plan for tomorrow: Do my 5k training in the morning before work, eat a heathly feeling breakfast. Ride my bike to work and home. Exercise as soon as possible when I get home so I dont lose my motivation. Oh yes and track my calories. Hopefully I can write back tomorrow with good news

I really dont understand this. I have a size 10 wedding dress that I just spent 200 dollars on, I know that I will be getting married in Sept and I know how much I hate my body. I screw up every week and every time that day is done I promise myself I wont do that to myself again. But then I do and usually worse. I hate how I feel after I binge eat but I just cant stop. I really want to give up fast food, its terrible for my body and makes me feel like crap, I actually either feel like throwing up or I get incredible stomach pain after wards… but then 3 hours later I want more. That has to be the chemicals. The thing that I dont get is, I gave up soda for lint and I have only had a sip and that was an accidently sip. Went to taco bell ordered a tea and they gave me pepsi. Threw out the pepsi but I was still super upset that I had a drink. Anyways, how is it that I can give up soda for 7+ weeks but I cant give up anything else for more than a week? I know that I love how I feel when I exercise and honestly healthy food is so much better tasting and I dont feel sluggish or sick afterwards, yet I cant give up the crap. Its so frusterating

I got on the scale today and it read 175, thats 30 pounds! I’m only 20 pounds away from my pre pregnancy weigh, holy crap I gained a lot with my daugther. Anyhow I will finally be able to pull out all of my old jeans and in great timing. I figured out that I will most likely hit my pre pregnancy weigh on Mother’s day! That will make my day even more special, I will definitely make an update as well as an “after” picture that day to let you know if I made it or not.

I was doing fantastic, almost half way done and I knew I would be able to do it no sweat. Until I woke up on the 13th day (sunday).   I had gone to be pretty early the night before to try to catch up on some sleep since my daughter was waking up like 3 times a night for the past 3 nights when previously she would only be up for 15 minutes the whole night. Anyways, I got up the next morning at 6 because I just couldnt sleep anymore. I felt really achy, weak and my throat was a bite sore but I thought that was because I slept too much.  We did have plans that day so I drank some hot tea and continued to do my hair. I thought after the tea and some coffee I would wake up and feel “normal” no such luck. I still went through with our plans to take our kiddos to the zoo. We had made a quick stop at the store for sun block then on our way. We were there for a half an hour and I just had to sit down, at this point I was freezing, all my muscles ached, and my throat hurt. We left right away, I pretty much knew at that time it was strep and on Tuesday that was confirmed. Fantastic. So apparently when I get sick without having nausea I’m starving all day. I was not about to diet when I’m sick I figured cutting calories wasnt the best idea. From Sunday-Tuesday I ate when I was hungry and whatever sounded ok which was once taco bell and kfc. I have to say both of those fast food options tasted terrible! I dont know if I will eat there again, I dont know if my taste buds were off or what but they just tasted gross. I am back on track now, and even though I’m bothered by a cough I’m still trying to be as active as I can.  I didnt gain any weight, thank god. I actually lost a pound I guess a fever of 102 will do that to you. Oh and since I couldnt do 30 straight days I’m going to just continue til Easter doing well and instead of thinking about rewarding myself with some special food for doing well for 30 days I’m going to get new nail polish. lol I went to paint my nails and thought ” Man how much red/pink does one person need?”

Does anyone know the nutrional info for chili ramen after you drain all the broth?

This has been bothering me for years. I have spent hours and hours looking this up with no success. I’m trying to figure out the name of an easter movie that I watched when I was a kid. It had a painter with magic paint brushes  and evil king of swords or knives something like that. It was an animated movie probably from the 70s or early 80s. I have no idea who was in it. If you have any idea which movie I’m talking about I would much apprieciate it since Easter is coming up and all. Thanks

I’m almost half way done with my 30 day challenge, and I have to say it has been so much easier than I thought. Before I couldnt go more than a few days without a huge screw up, but now I’m finding that I crave bad food way less. This is probably because I take a small bite of whatever I want, if my fiance is having a hamburger I’ll take a bite therefore I satisfied my craving without going nuts. I also have some mini snickers ice cream bars in the freezer, one bar is only 90 calories that hits my sweet tooth perfectly and I cant feel guilty because its so little in calories. As for exercise, I try to do at least 20 a day depending on what I’m doing that day. So far there has only been one day that I didnt do my usual exercise, but I walked the denver zoo for 3 and a half hours while holding my 4 month old in a front pack carrier. lol That was enough for me. The changes that I have seen so far has been even though I wake up really tired within 30 minutes I have a lot of energy. I’m able to do more with my kids, including taking them to the park most days of the week. My apt has been clean the whole time! Those of you with kids know how challenging this can be both with time and energy. I have found that I can carve out 20-30 minutes every morning and get everything done, then another 15 a night with the help of my 3 year old to pick up all his toys. Its so nice to finally have the energy to get everything done that I want to get done.

So 8 days ago I decided I would attempt on doing 30 straight perfect days, which is pretty much just making a deficent of 750 daily. I’m able to track this with my body bugg. Anyways, I have found that the only way for me to do this is to either exercise every day or eat much less on my days off. Obviously I chose exercising everyday since 1. I love eating way too much to nix 300+ calories twice a week and 2. I’m nursing so I have to maintain atleast 1500 a day.

At the beginning of this process all I could think about was rewards for myself at the end of my challenge, most of which being food. I was going back and forth between getting a tacorito or getting wings. A few days ago I decided I wanted something none food related, I want to get some shape ups to really make every step work for me. Then maybe I can actually give myself days off from exercising. Now today, after doing a week perfect including exercising everyday all I want to do is sleep in for one day. Followed by a day of nothing but movies with my family. I’m just so tired, but at the same time exercise is the only thing that gives me constant energy all day. I just need to keep reminding myself even on my “days off” its still only 20-30 minutes out of my day. Its just a challenge when your so used to being seditary.

As crazy or as simple as this sounds, workouts are so much easier if you push yourself as hard as you can the whole time. I dont mean going beyond your limits, just really giving it your all. I have been doing my workouts like this for the last few days and the time just flys by and I’m stunned to see the difference in calorie burn. In a workout that used to only burn around 300 calories when done without slacking I was able to add an extra 200 calories to that and I actually enjoyed myself. lol I actually found myself talking back to the trainers on my videos. ” You ready to run” ” Hell yes”… I’m glad no one sees this.

I am determined to lose 2 pounds this week. I havent lost more than 1 pound and honestly February was ridiculous. I had 10 cheat days that I ate like I did when I was pregnant. What is wrong with me? But I am challenging myself to do 30 perfect days in a row, so far I have done 5 with no real problems. Today was hard because we had a few surprise bills that emptied our wedding fund account which was 1000 half of our budget. So we have til Sept to make up for that and save an extra 1000. I freaked out because I dont know if we will be able to do it, its been 4.5 years I’m ready to get freakin married. Dispite that I resisted, well moslty. I had a dam thin mint, ONE.  Usually with something like that happening I would have finished that box. Stupid girl scout cookies. I think the only reason why I didnt do my usual huge screw up is because I’m sick of screwing up. I want to be able to set goals for myself and actually finish through with them, then maybe when I say I will go back to school when Marian is a year I will actually do it. I have been saying I would be going back to become a pastry chef for quite some time and have yet to even really look into it. I know I can find the time, a sitter and I’m sure I would get financial aid but I always had an excuse. And I’m tired of it. I’ m going to change, I have to…